The Downward Spiral

My health problems and the cost of treating them have me in a very blue mood today. Blue isn't the proper word; hopeless is better. I'm nearly 30 and I am at the very bottom of the career ladder, have high student loans and am now in need of serious and costly treatments. I can't stop crying. I just feel so alone in the world. I wish I had a family to say encouraging things to me or help me out financially a little. What makes the situation even more unbearable is that i'm sure that I have caused or contributed to these problems by neglect, depression and the lack of knowledge. Life is miserable and will never get better.